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Summer’s here, and so am I!

Published August 19, 2015 by Dreamreflector

I started my summer holiday about a week ago. Up until today, I’ve been totally exhausted. First, the task of getting 20 credits at the uni in a bit less that 2 months (the recommendation is 30 per semester, but they only require 23). Then on the following week of my last exam, I started a two month internship in a project focused on studying the peatland ecosystem, and more specifically said ecosystems plant communities in relation with the greenhouse gases released from the mire. More on the internship in the future post(s).

Now I am finally able to breath, lay back and de-stress, and with the added free time and energy, I felt like updating the blog a bit. Spring was a blizzard of weird iPhone snaps that aren’t worth going into much, but I did manage to take some actually worth while shots as summer progressed. I’ll be putting a bunch of them up here in the future C:

The weather this summer has so far been the coldest Finnish summer in the recorded history. Thank you mr. murphy for making the only summer when I have to work outside a crappy one! Thankfully, just as my newly found holiday spirit has started to show itself, so has the sun :D There are cloudless skies and warm nights on the forecast this week, and it finally seems like the summer’s here.

Let’s enjoy!

One young woman’s second attempt at blogging

Published December 21, 2014 by Dreamreflector

First of, lots of love to everyone who’s stuck with me even though I haven’t posted anything for what seems to be at least a decade. Even if you just haven’t bothered to delete my blog from your reader because there’s no harm in it being there, or simply forgot you were following this blog in the first place, thank you for bearing with me. I have been missing this blog and all you lovely readers, but I’m sure you all know that life just gets in the way of things sometimes.

This Fall has been mentally and physically really tough on me. My task for this period was to write my Bachelor’s thesis. Although I did manage, (sent it in just this Friday), it really took a toll on me in many ways. Firstly I was at the computer a lot, obviously reading articles and writing, which gave me crazy headaches and shoulder pain (I can’t seem to hold my posture while on the comp, in fact I’m scrunched up like a used napkin right now).

Because the work was done solo, I spent a lot of time at home, which made me feel lonely and frustrated, not to mention that leaving home became incredibly difficult. I had terrible mood swings, and I ate really badly too: when you sit on the computer doing the same thing for say, eight hours a day, it’s very easy to just forget to eat, besides, if you do remember, since you’ve been doing barely anything for weeks, you get lazy and won’t see the harm in living on bread and popsicles.

The feeling of loneliness was enhanced by the fact that a friend with whom I had been very close with during the last semester seemed to be giving me the cold shoulder. She didn’t show it in an obvious way, but it still felt like she was avoiding me. We used to spend alone time together at least once a week in the Spring, but as Fall came I found our time together growing shorter, eventually leading to a point where we would only meet when there was a bigger get-together. I tried asking her for coffee, attempted to pry out some details about how her life was going, but obviously something had changed for her. I am still wondering what happened, I really miss her.

I have always been one to get stressed easily, and the bachelor’s thesis caused me a lot of it. I am usually very conscientious in the work that I have to do, and will deliver best if not pressured. But since this property seems to be a rare thing among my fellow students, a lot of pressure was put on us to finish our theses. Thanks to this, I was very stressed and anxious for a very long time, which can’t be a good thing either.

To top all this of, my grandpa, whom I really respected, admired and loved, passed away less than two weeks ago. It was quite sudden, and I was about 400 kilometers away from him, so I didn’t even have a chance to say goodbye. Needless to say, I am still sad about losing him.

However, as Christmas is coming and my thesis is (at least almost) ready, I feel it is time to leave the struggles of the Fall behind and start with a clean slate. I have retired to my parents house for the holidays and have some free time again, so I felt like this might be the time to revive this blog. I’ll try to post something at least once a week. Still, this blog is, as it always has been, primarily for me, and I am not going to place any pressure on myself about this. I don’t need, nor deserve it. 

Tommorrow I will finally put an overdue end to the adventure in Lapland -series, and then move on to something else.

Although I haven’t had it easy lately, I am proud to say I still believe in dreams. I do wish you’ve kept your hope alive as well! C:

Feel

I took this picture last Friday, exactly a week from my grandpa’s passing. It’s some thin ice that has been cracking and freezing again. I can’t specify why, but I feel that this picture captures perfectly the mood I’ve had during this silence. What do you get from it?

An Impulsive choclate cake

Published October 26, 2012 by Dreamreflector

I’ve never been much of a baker, but today being a free day from the university I thought, why not make a cake today. And so I did. I found a recipe from the Internet, (I wonder if  anyone ever finds anything somewhere else than the Internet nowadays…) and started the work. I was almost positive that something would go wrong, I’d forget to add something, I’d add something twice, I’d add something at the wrong stage, or if all else succeeded, I’d leave it in the oven for too long. But there was no catastrophe! It turned out just great. I’m so happy, and I really do feel like I deserve a medal for this :D

I might have to go on a diet after eating this though. Over three cups of butter and four cups of sugar in there! :D Not exactly light and refreshing, but on a cold late fall weekend like this you don’t want to be refreshed. You crave something comforting and fulfilling – something like this cake. And doing something by impulse can be very refreshing!

In case you want to make you’re own cake, you can find the recipe here -> http://www.cacaoweb.net/easy-chocolate-cake.html

Today’s dream quote: “We come this way but once. We can either tiptoe through life and hope we get to death without being badly bruised or we can live a full, complete life achieving our goals and realizing our wildest dreams.” <3

I’m coming home (or going to)

Published August 9, 2012 by Dreamreflector

Again I am finding myself apologizing for not posting more frequently. I am so sorry! I have been very busy… Again. But the results are good: I have rented my very first apartment. I am going to move in permanently on my own by the end of August, but I have already started decorating a bit. I am ecstatic about this, so I am going to force you all people to see it. Of course everything’s still a mess because the place is nowhere near done, but here’s a sneak peek.

My bed and a super cute owl pillow I just had to buy.

The wooden floors are gorgeous ^^

My dining/studying table, a very futuristic lamp and in the front my current boyfriend: a turquoise fatboy bean bag.

I recognize these pictures aren’t very amazing photography wise, but I think that’s alright, taking into account that the subject is a work in progress. But just so the people who follow me for photos get something out of this post, here’s a more artistic photo, featuring the white curtain from the second picture.

And a dream quote for today: “During your life, never stop dreaming. No one can take away your dreams” ^^

A Summer Night

Published July 4, 2012 by Dreamreflector

I have really fell in love with this song by the Finnish band Pariisin kevät (literally “The Spring in Paris”) called Kesäyö – A Summer Night. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g5yEKTR9ygI It really has the perfect atmosphere for my summer, as it is beautiful, but a bit melancholic. Here are the lyrics translated in English by me, and some of my photographs fitted for the theme C: Please enjoy!

A Summer Night

I sat in the twilight

a moment started that

felt like it would never end.

The silence arrived to me for a while

arrived like a creature and yelled:

“Don’t be afraid of the world!”

We sat together for a while

and the space was looking at us.

And outside, a summer night

it rained tears on faces

And outside, a summer night

it rained tears on faces

I wake up on a beach,

the night is brighter than the day

the spots of light in the sky

glide to the morning

I have forgotten, from where I came here

I cloak myself in the cloak of oblivion.

But I remember squadrons,

that flew to the horizon.

And outside, a summer night

it rained tears on faces

And outside, a summer night

it rained tears on faces

INTERLUDE

I sit in the twilight

I am still waiting for the moment that never ends.

I wish the silence would arrive

and tell me how everything disappears eventually.

I see the lights in the sky

And shivers run down my back.

And outside, a summer night

it rained tears on faces

And outside, a summer night

it rained tears on faces

And outside, a summer night

it rained tears on faces

And out side, a summer night

it rained on faces

 

And this is me enjoying the summer night ;D

And a dream quote for today: “When a person truly desires something, all the Universe conspires to help that person realize his dream.” ^^

More about my Juhannus

Published June 24, 2012 by Dreamreflector

I promised more photos from our Finnish Juhannus, so here they are C:

The encounter with this little mink was totally unexpected. We both froze for a few seconds, but luckily I managed to fiddle the camera to take this photo before the guy came back to his senses and swam away. He too had a nice Midsummer feast coming up, at least judging by that poor duck.

The Yellow Irises were in full bloom on Juhannus. The bright yellow colour made a reflection to the surface of the lake too C:

This is a part of a tiny island we saw while boating. The islands terrain is like this all around, which is probably why the island is known as “Kallio Saari” -Cliff Island. It’s area is less than a kilometer, and it only has one summer cottage, meaning that the person owning the cottage, has the whole island to themselves. Pretty nice?

These Water Striders had it going on. And to be fair, Juhannus is for many, a time to drink, hook up with a hot hunk and have feverish animalistic sex. Not for me though :D At least not yet.

The Midsummer night is traditionally a night of love and magic. Flowers are tucked under pillows in the hopes of seeing one’s future spouse, women stand around wells, lakes, and ponds, nude, hoping to see they’re future husband on the surface of the water, and perhaps most extremely, a woman must go to a crossroads with three ways, stand in the middle of the crossroads, remove all her clothes, and then sweep a portion of each three ways. It is believed, that by doing so, the woman is making way for her future husband, who will then come to her. There are many many more tricks to be done on Juhannus night, but many of them are not commonly used of course :D How ever the flowers under the pillow is something I’ve done every year since I can remember, the husband is yet to be seen, but it is great fun!

A dream quote (well, sort of) for today, fitted for the Juhannus nights spirit of love: “Dream of me,” he said. “Dream of you? I’m doing that while I’m awake.”  Oh, how true ;)

Butterfly to the people

Published April 27, 2012 by Dreamreflector

I saw this year’s first butterfly today! I was so happy. Don’t you just love butterflies? I know I do. And that’s why I decided to do a post with a few pictures of butterflies, taken by me of course C: Enjoy!

I think butterflies are a great example of how nature can create amazing beautiful things, just like that C: Just look at that colour

This guy had his eye on me ;D

Beautiful. Looking at these instantly cheers me up.

And a design of timeless dots. And black of course.

A more complicated pattern.

There you go, a few beautiful butterflies. Hope they flew right to your heart ^^

A dream quote for today: ” I reject your reality and substitute it for my own.” <3