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One young woman’s second attempt at blogging

Published December 21, 2014 by Dreamreflector

First of, lots of love to everyone who’s stuck with me even though I haven’t posted anything for what seems to be at least a decade. Even if you just haven’t bothered to delete my blog from your reader because there’s no harm in it being there, or simply forgot you were following this blog in the first place, thank you for bearing with me. I have been missing this blog and all you lovely readers, but I’m sure you all know that life just gets in the way of things sometimes.

This Fall has been mentally and physically really tough on me. My task for this period was to write my Bachelor’s thesis. Although I did manage, (sent it in just this Friday), it really took a toll on me in many ways. Firstly I was at the computer a lot, obviously reading articles and writing, which gave me crazy headaches and shoulder pain (I can’t seem to hold my posture while on the comp, in fact I’m scrunched up like a used napkin right now).

Because the work was done solo, I spent a lot of time at home, which made me feel lonely and frustrated, not to mention that leaving home became incredibly difficult. I had terrible mood swings, and I ate really badly too: when you sit on the computer doing the same thing for say, eight hours a day, it’s very easy to just forget to eat, besides, if you do remember, since you’ve been doing barely anything for weeks, you get lazy and won’t see the harm in living on bread and popsicles.

The feeling of loneliness was enhanced by the fact that a friend with whom I had been very close with during the last semester seemed to be giving me the cold shoulder. She didn’t show it in an obvious way, but it still felt like she was avoiding me. We used to spend alone time together at least once a week in the Spring, but as Fall came I found our time together growing shorter, eventually leading to a point where we would only meet when there was a bigger get-together. I tried asking her for coffee, attempted to pry out some details about how her life was going, but obviously something had changed for her. I am still wondering what happened, I really miss her.

I have always been one to get stressed easily, and the bachelor’s thesis caused me a lot of it. I am usually very conscientious in the work that I have to do, and will deliver best if not pressured. But since this property seems to be a rare thing among my fellow students, a lot of pressure was put on us to finish our theses. Thanks to this, I was very stressed and anxious for a very long time, which can’t be a good thing either.

To top all this of, my grandpa, whom I really respected, admired and loved, passed away less than two weeks ago. It was quite sudden, and I was about 400 kilometers away from him, so I didn’t even have a chance to say goodbye. Needless to say, I am still sad about losing him.

However, as Christmas is coming and my thesis is (at least almost) ready, I feel it is time to leave the struggles of the Fall behind and start with a clean slate. I have retired to my parents house for the holidays and have some free time again, so I felt like this might be the time to revive this blog. I’ll try to post something at least once a week. Still, this blog is, as it always has been, primarily for me, and I am not going to place any pressure on myself about this. I don’t need, nor deserve it. 

Tommorrow I will finally put an overdue end to the adventure in Lapland -series, and then move on to something else.

Although I haven’t had it easy lately, I am proud to say I still believe in dreams. I do wish you’ve kept your hope alive as well! C:

Feel

I took this picture last Friday, exactly a week from my grandpa’s passing. It’s some thin ice that has been cracking and freezing again. I can’t specify why, but I feel that this picture captures perfectly the mood I’ve had during this silence. What do you get from it?

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How to untangle a mind at a melt down

Published December 5, 2013 by Dreamreflector

I’ve been a poor blogger again. And I’ve been crazy busy, which is not new either. One day, after having spent quite a few hours desperately trying to grasp the concept of type 2 nucleofilic substitution (aka some mind boggling chemistry shit), I wondered what could clear out the cluttered recesses of my mind.

Oh, photography!  I’ll just take my tripod and take some beautifully crisp and clear evening shots by the beach…. Waaaaiiiiit. How’s crisp and clear gonna relate to me when I’m more coarse and chaotic?  

With that, I ditched the whole serenity theme, and the tripod, and went all out with some really abstract light graffiti photography. A great way to unwind!

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Once again, no photoshop or anything the likes of used. Just added the signature with Paintbrush.

A dream quote for today: “Follow your dreams, they know the way” – Kobe Yamada

Will the sun set again?

Published November 2, 2013 by Dreamreflector

I wish I had more time to take photographs. I wish I had more time to cook. I wish I had more time to do the things I love. You guys ever feel like you don’t do anything fun anymore? I’ve been feeling like that for a while now. I mean I’ve been studying like crazy, thinking I just have to do this now so I can have fun later. It motivated me first, but not anymore. I mean what if I have a huge tumor stuck to my brain right now and I end up dying thinking I’ll have fun later. Unlikely as it may be it’s a possibility.

I guess the big take away from all this melancholy is that you really should not put off being happy. Sure, there are tedious things one has to keep doing, but you have to make sure you’re embracing life while you do them. The sun will set every night, but tonight may be the last time you’ll see it happen.

Here are some pictures of a sunset I saw

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A dream quote for today: “No facet of nature is as unlikely as we, the tiny bipeds with the giant dreams.” – Diane Ackerman

Simplicity

Published October 12, 2013 by Dreamreflector

I have been, and will be, insanely busy with my university studies. I’m currently taking chemistry, biochemistry, ecotoxicology, soil science, crop science and our mandatory course in Swedish, the last one maybe being the worst one of all. So obviously I’ve had little time for photography and little time to write this blog (in fact, I should be doing some online assignment right now).

I did take an hour of yesterday to go take a few photographs, though. There were a few I liked, but the ones I liked the most were the simplest ones. Simple is often times beautiful I guess C: So to keep it simple, here are the pics.

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A dream quote for today: “When people undermine your dreams, predict your doom or criticize you, remember they are telling you their story, not yours.” – Cynthia Occelli

The last of Summer

Published August 17, 2012 by Dreamreflector

Summer is preparing to leave already. On the 17th of August last year, my school had already started, and so the Summer was definitely gone. This year my school doesn’t start until the 3rd of September, but the Summer seems to be leaving anyway. So sad. I’m still incredibly busy with the move and all, but did manage to go and take a few photos today. The last of summer, caught and canned for winter.

A lovely heather in the Summer sun

Abstract Summer meadow ^^

Here comes the sun

A dream quote for today: “Yes, if it is meant to be, it will be. In the meantime, create your own fate. Plan big and dream bigger.” <3

Have a good one everyone! C:

I’m coming home (or going to)

Published August 9, 2012 by Dreamreflector

Again I am finding myself apologizing for not posting more frequently. I am so sorry! I have been very busy… Again. But the results are good: I have rented my very first apartment. I am going to move in permanently on my own by the end of August, but I have already started decorating a bit. I am ecstatic about this, so I am going to force you all people to see it. Of course everything’s still a mess because the place is nowhere near done, but here’s a sneak peek.

My bed and a super cute owl pillow I just had to buy.

The wooden floors are gorgeous ^^

My dining/studying table, a very futuristic lamp and in the front my current boyfriend: a turquoise fatboy bean bag.

I recognize these pictures aren’t very amazing photography wise, but I think that’s alright, taking into account that the subject is a work in progress. But just so the people who follow me for photos get something out of this post, here’s a more artistic photo, featuring the white curtain from the second picture.

And a dream quote for today: “During your life, never stop dreaming. No one can take away your dreams” ^^

Lake Evajärvi

Published July 15, 2012 by Dreamreflector

Firstly, I do apologize for the massive eleven day break I have taken in blogging :O I have been insanely busy, what with the summer camp and the quest of trying to find a place near my future university to rent and all. I have also been thinking about starting a blog featuring me singing. But the idea is nothing more than a dream yet, because I don’t have proper equipment and I’ve got no idea how to make sure no one’s going to claim they are singing when I am.

Well that’s that then, here are some pictures C: I spent a night in a cottage with friends a few days ago. It was in a very quiet place, and we had the small lake Evajärvi to our selves. I stayed up rather late, and got to witness a pretty sight: the air chilling to the point where the water in the lake was warmer than the air above caused the water to start to evaporate in a haze.

A dream quote for today: “To dream is to starve doubt, feed hope.” ^^