Fall

All posts tagged Fall

One young woman’s second attempt at blogging

Published December 21, 2014 by Dreamreflector

First of, lots of love to everyone who’s stuck with me even though I haven’t posted anything for what seems to be at least a decade. Even if you just haven’t bothered to delete my blog from your reader because there’s no harm in it being there, or simply forgot you were following this blog in the first place, thank you for bearing with me. I have been missing this blog and all you lovely readers, but I’m sure you all know that life just gets in the way of things sometimes.

This Fall has been mentally and physically really tough on me. My task for this period was to write my Bachelor’s thesis. Although I did manage, (sent it in just this Friday), it really took a toll on me in many ways. Firstly I was at the computer a lot, obviously reading articles and writing, which gave me crazy headaches and shoulder pain (I can’t seem to hold my posture while on the comp, in fact I’m scrunched up like a used napkin right now).

Because the work was done solo, I spent a lot of time at home, which made me feel lonely and frustrated, not to mention that leaving home became incredibly difficult. I had terrible mood swings, and I ate really badly too: when you sit on the computer doing the same thing for say, eight hours a day, it’s very easy to just forget to eat, besides, if you do remember, since you’ve been doing barely anything for weeks, you get lazy and won’t see the harm in living on bread and popsicles.

The feeling of loneliness was enhanced by the fact that a friend with whom I had been very close with during the last semester seemed to be giving me the cold shoulder. She didn’t show it in an obvious way, but it still felt like she was avoiding me. We used to spend alone time together at least once a week in the Spring, but as Fall came I found our time together growing shorter, eventually leading to a point where we would only meet when there was a bigger get-together. I tried asking her for coffee, attempted to pry out some details about how her life was going, but obviously something had changed for her. I am still wondering what happened, I really miss her.

I have always been one to get stressed easily, and the bachelor’s thesis caused me a lot of it. I am usually very conscientious in the work that I have to do, and will deliver best if not pressured. But since this property seems to be a rare thing among my fellow students, a lot of pressure was put on us to finish our theses. Thanks to this, I was very stressed and anxious for a very long time, which can’t be a good thing either.

To top all this of, my grandpa, whom I really respected, admired and loved, passed away less than two weeks ago. It was quite sudden, and I was about 400 kilometers away from him, so I didn’t even have a chance to say goodbye. Needless to say, I am still sad about losing him.

However, as Christmas is coming and my thesis is (at least almost) ready, I feel it is time to leave the struggles of the Fall behind and start with a clean slate. I have retired to my parents house for the holidays and have some free time again, so I felt like this might be the time to revive this blog. I’ll try to post something at least once a week. Still, this blog is, as it always has been, primarily for me, and I am not going to place any pressure on myself about this. I don’t need, nor deserve it. 

Tommorrow I will finally put an overdue end to the adventure in Lapland -series, and then move on to something else.

Although I haven’t had it easy lately, I am proud to say I still believe in dreams. I do wish you’ve kept your hope alive as well! C:

Feel

I took this picture last Friday, exactly a week from my grandpa’s passing. It’s some thin ice that has been cracking and freezing again. I can’t specify why, but I feel that this picture captures perfectly the mood I’ve had during this silence. What do you get from it?

Advertisements

Leaves drop

Published October 23, 2012 by Dreamreflector

The Autumn is nearing at an end. Winters coming. Yesterday the frost on the grass and the ice on the puddles didn’t melt for the whole day. Today was a bit warmer, but the puddles where still partly frozen. Hrrr.. I had a free day from the university today, so I went to take some photographs. It was only a quick 20 minute session but I still got a few shots I’d like to share with you C: Hope you like them!

If you look very closely you’ll see that the lady in the picture must have thought her outfit through very carefully. A perfect match! Or maybe it was just a coincidence. Either way, I couldn’t pass the opportunity :D

As you can see, most trees have lost nearly all their leaves, unlike the beautiful yellow-leaved trees on the upper picture. And also unlike in the upper picture, it’s mostly not that bright and light anymore. There’s no cheery beauty to this picture, rather a thorn bush like dark beauty.

As many of you regulars remember I love ice! The fact that something so simple can have so many beautiful forms just inspires me every time. I look forward to the air getting even colder so I can take some photographs of it ^^ This picture was taken at a brook which was partly frozen.

A dream quote for today: “Sometimes on the way to a dream, you get lost and find a better one.”

Have a lovely day everyone! ^^

Fall’s radiant reds

Published October 12, 2012 by Dreamreflector

Once again I’m in the train, the internet works and all is well. During my absence from blogging the Autumn has hit my new home town full on. I haven’t had time to take a lot of pictures, me being at the university takes quite a lot of time. But here are a few glimpses to the Finnish Autumn ^^

 

This blueberry leaves have settled into Autumn with gorgeous red hues ^^

The rowans have had a huge harvest this year. “Ei pihlaja kanna kahta taakkaa” says the Finnish saying. It literally means “A rowan won’t carry two burdens” and it suggest that during years of plentyful rowanberry harvest, there will be little or no snow the following Winter. Hope it’s not true though, because  I’d love to see a lot of snow! Anyway the berry’s have an intense redness to them C:

This huge fly agaric is very red and very toxic. I still found this one beautiful somehow.

 

And here’s a bonus. A yellow invasion! :D I just love colors, and that’s one of the things I like the most about Autumn.

A dream quote for today: “Dreams won’t always take you on a straight path to destiny but they’re usually related to what your soul wants for you. They’ll force you to ask yourself the hard questions, they’ll kick your ass and more importantly, they’ll turn you on.” ^^