Let this be the year you shine! Excel in your work or studies, start a hobby that makes you feel enlightened or be the spark of hope that your friend or family member needs. Stop being a wallflower and let yourself be seen and heard. If you were waiting for a sign, this is it! C:
Happy new year!
“Miracles start to happen when you give as much energy to your dreams as you do to your fears.” – Richard Wilkins
In my previous post I said I might be doing a post about my personal dream come true, my boyfriend. We’ve been together for eight months, and though I was happy before him, I am definitely even more happy right now. I know eight months is not a lot in relationships, and am realistic about our love, but I still feel like celebrating a bit. And to be honest, even though I love to take and post my photography, and you guys seem to enjoy looking at them (for which I’m very grateful for) this blog was originally started for me to nurture my dreamscapes and as my early readers would know, having this relationship is a major dream come true for me. So, on with a quick revisit to the roots of this blog C:
Before I met my boyfriend, I had spent hours and hours thinking about what it would be like to have someone like that. I dreamed about candle lit dinners, kissing under the fireworks, sitting close to each other at the cafeteria, watching the sunset with him gently smoothing my hair, having long, deep conversations about things that matter, and long, deep kisses after the conversations. Boy, I could fill a book with those.
Looking back, it’s fair to say that my prince charming had a lot to live up to. Now, as I have found someone to be that for me, (and someone who wants me to be the princess for him), I have found that not everything will be like I dreamed it would. Some things are better than I imagined; I never thought I’d be able to be so completely comfortable around someone who I’m not related to. I had imagined, that I could never completely let down my guard with a man. Of course I dreamed that we would be close, but I was expecting to constantly having to check that I’m putting the best foot forward, to keep the filter between my mind and mouth, to make sure not to say or do something that might make him freak out or stop loving me. I feel more at ease with him, than I have felt with any other guy. And really, that’s one of the reasons why I love him. Of course, my dreams are not being met the whole time. We both make mistakes. There really is no way for two imperfect people to be perfect together. But that’s okay; perfection’s really only a reflection of the godly world we all spend our lives reaching for.
Typing these scattered words, I feel there’s so much more to say, so much more emotion to convey, but I have no way to let it all out. To me that shows that what we’ve got is pretty close to perfection after all. This life is but a never ending quest to find the pieces to one’s own personal puzzle, and I am one piece closer to finishing mine.
Here are a few pictures of us ^^
Listen to our song :3 “Pieces” by Cider Sky <3
This is the bridge I was talking about in the previous post. It is pretty small, but that’s how I like it ^^ I love the railings too, and I love how the nearby weeping willow sort of envelops it C:
Here you can see the bridge in hole… well almost :D I quite like it
The view from the bridge is green to say the least. The view from the other side is to the lake, so it has less greenery. I don’t have a photo of that side though.
The bridge was pretty crowded too. I usually try to keep people out of the photos but could not resist the opportunity to snap a photo of this couple on their afternoon jog. It really is a wonderful place to go out with a sweetheart if you have one ^^ I kept the couple pretty blurry on purpose, to respect their privacy.
A dream quote for today: “All we need to do is listen carefully to the messages and follow our dreams. It is in our dreams that we find our true identities and where our destiny awaits.”
My next post will probably feature some photos of the nearby green ^^ Such a beautiful place. I’m not sure when I’ll be able to write it though, because the internet of course does not agree with me :/
Firstly, I do apologize for the massive eleven day break I have taken in blogging :O I have been insanely busy, what with the summer camp and the quest of trying to find a place near my future university to rent and all. I have also been thinking about starting a blog featuring me singing. But the idea is nothing more than a dream yet, because I don’t have proper equipment and I’ve got no idea how to make sure no one’s going to claim they are singing when I am.
Well that’s that then, here are some pictures C: I spent a night in a cottage with friends a few days ago. It was in a very quiet place, and we had the small lake Evajärvi to our selves. I stayed up rather late, and got to witness a pretty sight: the air chilling to the point where the water in the lake was warmer than the air above caused the water to start to evaporate in a haze.
A dream quote for today: “To dream is to starve doubt, feed hope.” ^^
Part one https://mydreamrealities.wordpress.com/2012/04/20/things-i-am-going-to-do-someday-vol-1/
Part two https://mydreamrealities.wordpress.com/2012/04/23/things-i-am-going-to-do-someday-vol-2/
Okay so part three it is :D At this point I want to say that the things I have already said I am going to do are in no particular order, just in the order in which they came to mind, and I will continue with that.
This has been a dream of mine for quite a long time.
It’s so beautiful. I mean the trees, the birds the everything! It’s just a place I have to see.
Plus, this would be sooo amazing
I can cook a bit of course. I made a delicious beef just today. And I can make a killer pizza, with self baked dough and all. But I would really love to be able to make something truly glamorous, a true gourmet dish. I mean I love food, and I love to eat out. And I have tasted some of the most sweetest things. I have had dishes like “Fried fillet of reindeer from Inari and ptarmigan from Utsjoki, creamed sheep polyporus mushroom, terrine of cold-smoked reindeer and new crop potatoes served with dark game sauce “. It tasted so good. And sounds fancy. And would certainly impress anyone. So I would really love to know how to make something like that.
I am so hungry right now. To the fridge I say! :D
But before that, a dream quote for today: “Throw your dreams into space like a kite, and you do not know what it will bring back, a new life, a new friend, a new love, a new country.” ^^
You can read part 1 here: https://mydreamrealities.wordpress.com/2012/04/20/things-i-am-going-to-do-someday-vol-1/
I have always loved to climb on things, and I still do. Remembering those childhood summers, and knowing that a person my age climbing a tree in public, is not really considered socially acceptable, I figured this would be the mature thing to do.
I remember one time, me and my friend spotted a “Glacial erratic” -see I’m trying really hard to be mature :DD basically that’s just a huge rock- in the woods, and decided to climb on top of it. It was at least three meters (so about 10 ft) high, and very very slippery, but we managed to get on top with the help of a rope we knotted to a pine tree on the opposite side of the side we were going to climb. Our mother’s almost had heart attacks when they found out of course, but I had found a passion.
Of course many would argue that Finnish is an exotic language, and I suppose for many it is, but it being my native language, I am certainly not going to settle for that.
Then there is of course the maybe too obvious fact that I also know English. And rather well too, I’d like to think, for someone not native I mean. But I think everyone agrees the words English and exotic have nothing more in common but the initial e vowel. So that won’t do either.
I also know a bit of Swedish. But that’s compulsory in Finland, and Imo one of the most useless languages there is, simply because it’s only spoken in Sweden and they all know English. So that’s a no too.
Then the last and I’d say the most unusual item in my language repertoire: Russian. It does tick the exotic box for quite a few people, but when I say exotic, I really mean exotic. Oh and almost forgot. I know a bit of sing language too. That’s kinda exotic? But I really love to talk so I need a language that’s spoken.
So what would I like to learn then, you ask? I do realise that I already know more languages than some people ever will. But what would really do the trick for me is something really out of the norm. Something like Bengali. Many people living here in Europe or in America probably haven’t even heard about the Bengali language. And I have never known anyone who spoke it, in fact I have never even heard someone knowing someone who spoke it. And yet it’s one of the most spoken languages in the world. Useful and definitely exotic.
So that’s two more things to the to do list for life ^^
A dream quote for today: “Be careful what you water your dreams with. Water them with worry and fear and you will produce weeds that choke the life from your dream. Water them with optimism and solutions and you will cultivate success.” <3
Keep your dreams growing and your goals groomed!
At some point in their life, I think everyone gets to a point where they reflect on their past experiences and decide what more there is to be done in life. I have done something like that today. But because I feel I have so much to say about these, I am going to do several posts (don’t know how many yet, we’ll see) about what I want to do in life. And I am going to write about one or two things per post, depending on how much I have to say about them. Hope you enjoy reading these, and maybe find some things that you too want to do. Or maybe you have done some of these already! If you have, I would love for you to comment about it. Okay here we go!
I think for those of you who have bared with me a while longer, this is something rather obvious, and it has been that way for me too. True love, for which I miraculously still have faith for, to me demands marriage. But of course, marriage itself as a goal would be stupid. There’s no point in marrying someone just to get married. So that’s why I need an other goal.
That’s probably even more obvious to you :D But it’s true. I don’t feel the need to present much argument for this. I’ve never met a person who hasn’t wanted to fall in love. Sure we all have moments when we think, fuck love, but sooner or later we’ll still end up wanting to feel it. I’m really not that into rap music, but this Finnish rap song really has a cute take on love. The artists are Leijonamieli and Putkimiehet (Literally The lion mind and the plumbers) and the song is called “Laulu sadepäivän varalle” (A song for in case of a rainy day) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6rr4Jca-V9s. Enjoy the sound of Finnish C:
Here are the lyrics in English, translated by me:
Sometimes it rains, sometimes it shines, this is my song for in case of a rainy day.
CHORUS:
This is my song for in case of a rainy day
I know I won’t stay alone
Something great was missing
The direction of the wind of my life changed
I can see the sun already
What is the thing for which sake you have resorted to desperate acts
The thing for which sake there has been war and murder
But without it one is so very frustrated
What is the thing who cuddles you and to whom you unload your sorrows
The thing that makes you think “what the f**k”
since because of it both your eyes and jaw drop.
Many people have to search it from deep down
To ask it from the above in their nightly prayers
Young people search for it, it supports in the midst of worry
It brings out the most sensitive side in the toughest of men
Everybody searches it, some will never find it
It puts down the arrogant, and raises up the humble
It is thrown away in anger
It gets you to collect seven flowers under your pillow on midsummer night
When I look at it I see so many d*mn good things
that to describe it I need Dave’s big pen
CHORUS
Now she sleeps next to me, burrowed in my armpit
At her most beautiful with the shape of the pillow pressed on her cheek
It’s the feeling of togetherness on dark nights
when both my soul and body tingle under her touch
when she came to visit me for the first time
she gave coloured pencils to my black and white world
causing a never-ending beating of my heart
forcing me to seek an answer to the question
Why me
Why did it choose me, a man who has shards of glass in his heart
Why me
Why did it choose me, a man who yesterday painted a devil to a wall
The answer:
It doesn’t ask us time or place
It gets our priorities straight, it renews us
It was lost, but has now come back
It’s the worlds greatest feeling -being in love!
CHORUS
This is probobly my favourite part
For so long the sun rose black
you’re heart starts to hurt when you walk alone in the darkness for long enough
thinking, won’t these days give me any light at all
That’s when I saw a flash from the sun under the gray sky
I want to believe in faith and build it with you
In the middle of the storm you stood, at the end of a rainbow
S**t piles up but that too I can all carry
When I’ve got someone next to me, with whom to divide the burden
CHORUS x2
Phew, that was it. And this is one of the reasons why I normally don’t like rap music. The lyrics are soooo long. Hope someone had the patience to read those through, because there are many great points in it about love.
A dream quote for today: ” Dreams get you into the future and add excitement to the present.” ^^
Every time I have driven the motorway between my home town and our capital Helsinki, I have gone into a childlike state of utter cheerfulness at a specific point. For as long as I can remember, an old spruce, has grown in the berm. It was not an ordinary spruce: thanks to some sort of infection, its treetop had grown into a huge ball. I had given the tree a well-fitting nick name “Pallo kuusi” (meaning “the ball spruce”). I have always found it so funny and encouraging at the same time, that such a freak of nature could keep on living. How ever I had never even dared to guess, that some one else might have noticed it, not to mention found it as intriguing as I did.
Today as I was browsing some articles in the website of a local paper, I found something. It was shocking at first, then incredibly touching. An article titled “Moottoritien maamerkki on poissa” (meaning “the landmark of the motorway is gone”). The ball in the treetop had snapped of for it was two heavy -no wonder as the balls diameter was close to two meters :O
At first I was so shocked and sad to hear the faith of my beloved tree. But then I realised something else.
Firstly that someone had actually written an article about that tree! I was not the only one who had noticed. Not at all.
Secondly having scrolled to the end of the article I looked at the comments. There were hundreds and hundreds of them! People commenting on how much they loved the poor tree. “I knew right away having read the headline that it was about the ball spruce. I had a really deep connection to it. Rest in peace.” That person even had the same nick name for the tree ^^
By now everyone’s probably wondering what’s the big idea in all this, right? Any one feel like I’m a delusional hippy? Well I do have a point! And here it is: YOU MIGHT FEEL LIKE NO ONE CARES ABOUT YOU, ABOUT HOW YOU FEEL, ABOUT WHAT YOU THINK, MAYBE YOU FEEL LIKE NO ONE CARES A COW’S BEHIND ABOUT IF YOU EVEN EXIST. BUT I AM HERE TO TELL YOU TODAY, THAT IT IS NOT TRUE! YOU MIGHT NOT SEE PEOPLE NOTICING OR CARING ABOUT YOU BUT EVEN IF YOU DON’T IT DOES NOT MEAN THAT THEY ARE NOT THERE. THEY ARE THERE. SOME ONE IS ALWAYS THERE. YOU REMEMBER THAT.
Sorry about the shouting there, I had to make sure that if people get bored they’ll at least spot the most important bit C:
Anyway, there’s nothing more to say than Rest in peace Ball spruce <3
And a dream quote: “All [wo]men dream but not equally. Those who dream by night in the dusty recesses of their minds wake in the day to find that it was vanity; but the dreamers of the day are dangerous [wo]men, for they may act their dream with open eyes to make it possible.” ^^
I got really inspired by the comment Kunai27 leaved on my previous post, so I decided to take my stand on the subject in this post, so it would give encouragement to more people C:
Kunai27 wrote: “I wouldn’t say you have strange preferences, believe me I try to hold myself to some standards too, I try to be a great guy, but the women I’ve been with have never made me feel “attractive,” I’ve only been told that, and as much as I try to be easy on the standards I have for a relationship I do think I have low ones, even my last relationship I knew she had a history with recreational drugs, but all I knew was she had smoked pot, it always makes me uneasy but I figured at least pot is organic, then one night she just abandons me in a bar to go do cocaine. Didn’t do well for my self-esteem either knowing she was only using me as a sex object, but I read what you write and it reminds me to stay hopeful, it reminds me that yeah maybe I too should stand up for myself and have “strange preferences” maybe then I’d have a quality relationship that lasts and is based on something truly wonderful, I say stay strange, stay you…”
Kunai27 It’s time to decide that you deserve better than the likes of the woman you described!
The most common mistake we do, is settling for something less than we deserve. We all do it, myself included. We fear we’ll never get what we need anyway, or just think that a mediocre relationship is better than no relationship at all. But see, I have decided that I am not going to settle for mediocre, because that will never make me happy. There are times when it feels hard to choose being alone over mediocre dates with mediocre men, but why waste your time on something you know is not the right thing for you, is not going to last, and most importantly deep down isn’t what you want at all.
Of course some might argue that I’ll get nothing if I just sit here and daydream about perfection. And you’re absolutely right. But here’s the key: You have to know what will satisfy you, and then go get it. And the pivotal point here is, that when you have visualised exactly what you want, you will know exactly when a person is not going to satisfy you and you will know exactly when to stop wasting time on people who you know won’t make you happy.
So think through what you need, where you’re willing to compromise and how greatly and then stick to it. When you notice a person does not have what you need, DO NOT SETTLE for them! We all deserve more than mediocre, and we’ll all get more, if we’re just determened enough! I’ve had some really rough times in my humble lifetime, and they’re not entirely behind me either to be honest, but that hasn’t stopped me from making the desicion that I deserve to be happy.
A dream quote for today: “The trouble with not having a goal is that you can spend your life running up and down the field and never score. ” :D
Remember, You too deserve to be happy! ^^
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